Alice In-Between

In 'Alice In-Between,' Alice McKinley turns thirteen, a milestone that brings both excitement and confusion. She feels caught between childhood and womanhood, questioning her place in her musically talented family when she struggles to carry a tune. Through a thoughtful conversation with a chorus teacher and heartfelt affirmation from her father, Alice learns to embrace her unique qualities and finds profound self-acceptance. This chapter book gently explores themes of identity, family love, and the often-awkward journey of adolescence, making it ideal for readers navigating their own 'in-between' years.

<p>I did something at school on Monday that I'd been thinking about since fifth grade but never thought I'd have nerve enough to do. I guess I was still thinking about Porgy and Bess and how beautiful it was when that woman sang Summertime. And when Bess sang to Porgy, and Porgy to Bess, and all the street vendors were singing together. I wished I knew how it felt to be up on a stage singing like that -- even in the back row of a chorus, where, when you opened your mouth and made a sound, people didn't turn to stare at you.</p><p>It was right after lunch when Pamela and Elizabeth and I were leaving the cafeteria to sit outside on the steps. We passed the chorus room, and I noticed the teacher standing by his desk, sorting through some sheet music.</p><p>I'll meet you outside, I said to Elizabeth and Pamela, and ducked through the door.</p><p>I walked over to where he was working. I didn't even know his name. Maybe 13 makes you bolder or something.</p><p>Hello? he said, smiling a little, and kept sorting. I'm not in chorus, but I've got a question, I began.</p><p>Shoot. He was looking at me now.</p><p>People say that when my mother was alive, she used to sing a lot. My dad plays the flute and piano, and my brother plays the guitar. They both sing too. I can't carry a tune, and don't understand it. I just wondered if it's genetic or something.</p><p>Well, now, he said, and continued smiling, it's probably a question no one has an answer for, but are you quite sure you can't carry a tune?</p><p>Trust me, I said, and explained how all through grade school, when the other kids sang for the PTA, I was given the triangle to ping at the end of each stanza. And when I sang Happy Birthday at parties, itbrought down the house.</p><p>The teacher listened. Well, some people believe in the Suzuki method, which goes on the theory that everyone can learn to carry a tune if they're exposed to music at an early age.</p><p>I probably listened to it before I was born, I told him. But I can't even tell you if notes go up or down.</p><p>He studied me a moment. There are no guarantees, but if you really want to make the effort, I'd be willing to work with you each day for fifteen minutes and see what we could do. The real question, though, is how unhappy you are with yourself just as you are now. Would this make a big or a little difference in your life? Or no difference at all?</p><p>I thought about that. Would I rather have fifteen minutes a day to sit out on the steps with Pamela and Elizabeth after lunch and talk to the guys, or did I want to embarrass myself by trying to make my voice match the notes on a piano? And if I finally did get to the place where I could carry a tune, would I break into song when I saw my boyfriends coming toward me on the sidewalk?</p><p>I guess maybe I'm pretty happy the way I am, I said finally.</p><p>He grinned. Okay. If it ever bothers you enough that you feel genuinely unhappy about it, come back and we'll see what we can do. If it's only a mild annoyance, you probably wouldn't want to spend the time and effort.</p><p>I went outside smiling. I think it was the first time in my life that a teacher told me I could survive without knowing his subject. That I could live a long, healthy life and still not know diddly about what he was teaching. Maybe when you were thirteen, people treated you more grown-up. Maybe I was on my way to womanhood, and people could see it already in my face.</p><p>I told Dad that night what the teacher had said. I hate to admit it, he told me, but he's right. There was a time I fantasized that my children would be musicians when they were grown. Career musicians, I mean. And now I realize that if you were anyone other than who you are, you wouldn't be the Lester and Alice I love, and I wouldn't trade you for the world.</p><p>And that was the second time in a week I'd felt really, truly, totally, absolutely loved.</p>