
Reach for this book when your older teenager or college-bound student is struggling with the transition to independence or hiding their true self behind a performance. Nathaniel Conti is a freshman who uses attention-seeking behavior to mask a profound sense of emptiness and a history of mental health struggles. As he navigates new friendships, a budding romance with a photographer, and the return of a toxic person from his past, he must learn to be honest about his needs. This story deals with heavy themes of self-harm, depression, and the masks we wear, making it a powerful choice for parents looking to open deep conversations about mental health and the messy reality of starting over. It is best suited for mature readers aged 15 and up due to its raw exploration of emotional pain.
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Sign in to write a reviewTypical contemporary YA college-level profanity.
Sensitive and realistic portrayal of new intimacy.
Protagonist makes poor choices to get attention or cope with pain.
The book deals directly and realistically with mental health, specifically depression, dissociation, and self-harm. The approach is secular and psychological. The resolution is realistic and hopeful, emphasizing that recovery is a continuous process rather than a one-time fix.
A high school senior or college freshman who feels like they have to put on a show to be liked, or a teen who is privately struggling with their mental health while maintaining a loud public persona.
Parents should be aware of the depictions of self-harm and the visceral descriptions of emotional numbness. Previewing the scenes involving the former friend's return is recommended to understand the impact of toxic peer dynamics. A parent might notice their teen becoming increasingly performative or, conversely, totally withdrawn, or perhaps they have discovered evidence of past self-harm and want a way to discuss the emotional roots of that behavior.
Younger teens (14) will focus on the social drama and the 'coolness' of the college setting. Older teens (17+) will resonate more deeply with the existential dread and the pressure of identity formation.
Unlike many YA novels that focus solely on the romance, this book prioritizes the internal experience of dissociation and the difficult work of mental health maintenance.
Nathaniel Conti is starting his freshman year of college, desperate to leave behind a reputation for being a troublemaker. He struggles with a dissociative sense of not being real when alone, leading him to seek external validation at any cost. Through a new social circle involving lacrosse and a sensitive photographer, he begins to heal. However, the arrival of an old friend threatens his progress by dredging up past traumas and unhealthy coping mechanisms.
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